Still Sedated

The doctors wanted to test mama today and see how she would do off sedation. At about 1:30 they stopped her sedation meds and it only took her a few minutes to come around. She opened her eyes and was doing okay for the first few minutes but after a while she started to get upset and tried to talk. I was asking her simple yes or no questions if she knew what had happened, she shook her head no. I explained that she was in the hospital and that she has had a few surgeries. The look on her face was pure terror so I asked if she was scared... she shook her head yes. I tried my best to calm her and explain that she will be okay, that I will be here for her and that I love her so much. She lifted her hand and started writing letters on my shirt. She wrote 'I love you" and started crying. Her heart rate started to elevate at that point and it continued over the next few minutes. They decided to put her back on sedation for the time being and next time they try taking her off, they might give her some anxiety medication to help with her stress level so that she can be off sedation and off the ventilator quicker. She continues to amaze me!